These words share an insight as to what lives inside of me
and the journey I have walked – not easy – not comfortable.
I am sharing it with you as a reminder and an invitation
that walking the journey of life and embracing life’s many
trials and tribulations can leave you open and free or closed
As I enter the next decade of my life, turning 40 in January,
having encountered some of the deepest and darkest demons
inside of me over the last 10 years,
I am reminded that “touching the centre of my pain”
has left me with a depth of wisdom and love
that I would never meet without the sorrow and the sadness
that I endured along the way.
It is through our pain and challenging times that we find out
who we truly are, what we are truly worth and what life is
Much of what I teach people are in these words…
Connect to your heart,
and enjoy reading
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love
for your dream for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon…
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty
And if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire
with me and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
During the retreat in January,
I will open up a space for you to set yourself free.
We will share.
We will celebrate who you are.
We will “dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes”.
You will awaken to a new you!
CREATE YOUR YEAR RETREAT
In January (10th – 12th) at the new retreat centre in Zoopigi.
The facebook details about the event are here: